Here He Comes!

The day has finally come. November 26, 2013 sometime in the afternoon, our baby will be born. I wish I could say I knew how to feel, but its a mixed bag of emotions. I'm nervous, excited, worried, happy, and grateful. I'm nervous for the delivery and I'm constantly praying to God that both Mimi and the baby will be just fine, no complications. I'm excited because watching and bringing a new life into this world is a true gift from God. The power and energy of that first breathe, the first cry, and even that first touch is simply amazing. I'm worried for the future and again, praying that this son is healthy with no complications as he grows. I've worked with, seen, and treated many with conditions that really have no cure like ADHD or Autism. As a clinician those really freak me out when it comes to my own child. I'm happy because our family is growing and this third child is truly a blessing by God. Finally, I'm grateful because God knows of our troubles with the miscarriage just prior to this pregnancy. He knows the desires of our hearts and here God has sent this gift to us and in just over an hour we may meet him face to face. For that, I am deeply grateful for this precious gift God has entrusted to Mimi and I. I've had some time to just stop and reflect this morning. Mimi woke me up around 5:45 am and let me know that it was time. I quickly got out of bed, washed up, and grabbed the essential items. The good thing is, yesterday, our OB was so certain that the baby might possibly come yesterday and Mimi was feeling such strong contractions I prepped ourselves for going in as of last night. So this morning, all was ready. We let her mom know that we were leaving and even Phoebe woke up amongst all the commotion. She was extremely happy that since Mommy and Daddy had to go to the hospital, she was going to have a stay home day with Po Po. Allie was sound asleep the entire time and well, she got her beauty sleep in. When we got to the hospital, they quickly assessed Mimi and got her straight away to a room without a bed. We waited and the bed finally did come, but then of course we came during change of shift and things took much longer than we had anticipated. The important thing was that Mimi got her epidural and that was priority for her. So from 9:00 am till now which is roughly 2:30 pm, its been a waiting game for the little prince to make his arrival. At 2:05 pm Dr. Quinn-Chen broke the water and we figured about an hour after maybe they would start the process, but I have to say, this little guy is making himself comfortable in mommy's tummy. I think this is already a sign that he will be a mamma's boy. So in reflection all day, I was wondering why I had not blogged as much as prior. At first I felt a little bit down about it that I was not being good documenting the pregnancy. Then I realized I also have two other children and we both had jobs, and that sometimes just finding time to just sit and write was not always an option. I'm so glad that we have these many hours to just wait. There is something precious about these moments before our family grows to a family of five. There is something that will forever change our lives, for the better, but there is definitely no going back. God has put us on this path and this path we will continue with great joy and excitement. I am also pondering how this marks the end of our child bearing part of life. We are too old, too tired, and just don't have enough resources for another child. This will basically be our last one. Like I mentioned earlier, there is something precious about this time because how often does someone actually get to witness the birth of a life into the world. Its amazing, wondering, fantastic, powerful, and energetic all in one. I guess I'm sad that this will be the final one for us. Its now 2:50 pm and Mimi is definitely feeling pressure down below. The nurse just came in to measure and she said with a few more contractions she should be ready. The Doctor is coming back and we'll get the pushing started. God, thank you once again for this chance to bring a baby to the world. May you be the one who guides this delivery and may You be glorified in this moment. Amen.